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illustrated by James Ransome

'Manda's having a dark day until Aunt Ruby snuggles up and suggests she makes a list of things she loves. Guess who's top on 'Manda's list? She loves her Aunt Ruby!


This book got lovely reviews (see the column on the left), which made me very happy. Especially because it was the very first hardcover picture book I sold.

But it's interesting for me to think about this book now, many years after it was published in 1996. It had taken me years to write the story, and, after the manuscript was sold to the publishing house, it took another five years for the book to come out. That's not unusual for picture books, since the publishing house has to find an illustrator, and wait for the illustrator to finish other projects before they start. But what that means is that I wrote this book in a time that was different, a time when the world was beginning to be more sensitive to issues around race, but I wasn't as sensitive as I've grown to be today.


Would I write this story now? Not in the same way. Today, I wouldn't presume to tell the story of an African-American character. I would leave that story for others to tell, writers who had actually lived that experience.


This book had multiple inspirations. It was partially inspired by the kids and families I met when I was a preschool teacher. One of the girls lived with her mom, her aunt, her cousins, and her grandmother in a big extended family. Sometimes the girl's mom would pick her up, sometimes her aunt, sometimes her grandmother. That made me want to write a story about a big family that was strong and close and loving.


I also watched the kids in my class struggle with strong feelings, and I identified, since I'd had those kinds of feelings myself.

I decided to let the main character herself tell the story. In other words, she would say, "I did this, I did that," in her first person voice, instead of the author, or third person voice, saying, "She did this, she did that." Telling stories in first person can help a writer learn about and understand the character.

As I started to write, the narrator revealed herself to be a girl a girl named 'Manda. And when I sold the book, I was extremely lucky that they snagged James Ransome to illustrate. My editor told me that James would be the one to decide the race of the character. If he felt the voice was African-American, then he could create the paintings to reflect that. If not, we would find out how he pictured the family when he submitted the sketches.

As it turned out, James based the characters on actual people in his life – his own family, his neighbors. And it turned out he actually had an Aunt Ruby! The paintings look so true-to-life they almost look like photographs.

I do continue to love this book. Because I sometimes feel like 'Manda – depressed, or really angry. Do you ever feel like that? And it definitely cheers me up to think about the things I love, and also to feel close to people who care about me, as Aunt Ruby cares about 'Manda.


Years later, this book continues to teach me. Can we, as writers and as human beings, develop more sensitivity to and respect for the experience of others? We can, and with pleasure. Today, I love reading books by other authors who write about their own families and experiences in beautiful and moving ways. And that's a light in the darkness for sure.